Funky Fresh.

That’s what’s written on the old train in Gtown… I kinda hope we get that job, seeing as Xblah went kaboom. They gave us the sweetest send off too, something like: Your design was the best but uh, NO THANKS. In the meantime, amidst all this busy-ness, I’ve rediscovered Cake. Reminds me of H and his mix cds from a bajillion years ago… Still have Cake & De La Sol somewhere in my car.

vanilla, sugar, flour, pinch of horrors…
ingredients for success.

taurus
Your unconventional ideas about work today might surprise you because they feel out of character for you. But even your craziest and most original thoughts are probably more conservative than they seem at first. Luckily, you have plenty of stamina to finish what you start. Nevertheless, it’s still wise to make sure that you aren’t over-committing your time or resources before it’s too late.

cancer
Your financial life might become more complicated than you expect when others don’t share your goals at work. They might approve of your current actions, yet disagree with your philosophy or your objectives. Oddly enough, it’s not very clear where their support ends, for those in control seem to be enthusiastic about something you are doing. Tread carefully and don’t depend on others now for more than they are willing to give.

libra
Whatever was holding you back finally seems to let go. Your creative dam could burst today, sending a flow of big ideas and original visions into your awareness. The real issue is whether or not you’ll be able to express your experience in a manner that others will be able to understand. Your need to be seen and appreciated is strong now, so don’t be afraid to let others know what’s going on.

sagittarius
If you have siblings, they may play a more important role in your life these days. If you don’t have any brothers or sisters, you might pull in some close friends to play out your issues of dependency versus independence. It might appear as if others aren’t sure how close to get to you or how long to stay. But on further examination, it appears that they are just following your lead.

Don’t get the wrong idea, it’s not about love. It never is. For the first time in a loooong time, I am sick. I am coughing and hacking and blehing and watching ridiculously beautiful cinematographic movie drab. Can’t sleep, can’t eat. Can’t hardly stand it. *sips really effing hot tea* But that’s what you get for not bringing a coat. And today, the day I really have no voice, we have a meeting on the other side of the moon with some very silly people about even sillier things.

On the plus side, being sick along with the icy weather has kept me inside and bored, meaning outside of ridiculous, beautiful, drab movies… I’m also cleaning. Cleaning for the move. Whenever that may be. And I’ve come to the conclusion that I have too much stuff.

Wanna toss it and start again.

horror cookies
real fortunes from real cookies on my really messy desk.

taurus
Every person is the architect of his own future.
lucky numbers: 5, 11, 12, 21, 29, 44

cancer
Never set the tiger free if you live in the mountain.
lucky numbers: 32, 36, 4, 40, 7, 37

libra
If you wish good advice, consult your mother.
lucky numbers: 7, 10, 11, 13, 24, 39

sagittarius
Your artistic talents win the approval and applause of others.
lucky numbers: 3, 8, 10, 11, 12, 29,

And my all time favorite, belonging to no one in particular:
Promote literacy. Buy a box of fortune cookies today.

(blurry, but you get the gist)

Ready for some randomness? Rhetorical:

Some people are just really terrible at being alone. Henna smells effing weird and can turn your hair green. Vodka is my friend, one of those really ornery asshole-like friends. I accidentally made a client’s website disappear from Google for a week. That was fun. I’m going to be a goddess for Halloween and chuck Zeus’s thunderbolt candies at kiddies. Toga? Mini-Mighty-Spider is living on top of my monitor, he’s hella cute… think I’ll call him George. My back hurts like a pregnant woman giving birth to a spiky demon. I want the rest of this year to be over with so no one has to deal with holiday madness. Oh yeah, yesterday, the weirdo stray cat living on our porch got into a hissing fight with some neighbor’s gato. For about 40 minutes all they did was hiss and growl and jut their tails back and forth. Neither would budge, most annoying crap ever. Broke another string on that damn guitar and this time it split my finger open, sonofahblah.

It makes typing really killer. And to top off finger pain, and you know why that’s already bad enough right (?), Catherine’s heart is still a little broken. Like, it’s sparky things are misfiring all over the place. Stupid heart. We really need to find a replacement for it.

horrors with a bite
vampires are not supposed to say “uh oh”

taurus
You don’t need to spend a lot of time planning today because your friends will come through with the necessary details — even if it’s at the last moment. You have something important to learn about relationships now, and the only way you’ll get to the core of your current lesson is by remaining open to how others express their love to you.

cancer
It’s time for you to get moving. You’ve had a few days to process your feelings and think about what’s ahead, but now you cannot put off the inevitable. Instead of waiting for the perfect moment, take the first steps toward your predetermined goal. It may take you a while to get there, so don’t delay any longer.

libra
Even if you’re thinking about your long-term goals, the Sun’s entry into your 2nd House of Basic Values may transform your core beliefs in a way that you can now share with others. Once you are feeling better about yourself, you should be able to increase your income by just showing up and doing your job with a positive attitude.

sagittarius
The Sun’s entry into your 12th House of Imagination may stimulate your fantasies over the weeks ahead, yet manifesting these dreams poses a higher degree of difficulty. Oddly enough, focusing too much on making anything happen can actually delay it now. You’ll need to discover the right amount of force to apply to any situation. Remember, though, these answers come from within.

Kinda ironically, that line sums up my thought-process with such clarity that it nearly floors me every time I read it. Granted, I first read it forever and a day ago and many times since but still… you know? Amazing.

Weeks without horrors, weeks without writing anything for anyone. Can’t seem to focus, though craving distractions, not much has changed really. Things haven’t gone to hell completely, just the same ol’ same ol’…

But having been quiet for a bit, there was time to think things over and I think, think, I’m ready to give up now. Imagine that? Bad habits are stupid, kiddos. Like, really bad. The way I figure it is – wait, let’s get this over with first:

horrors for the road
step on a crack break your mother’s back

taurus
You may have a change of heart today and tell others exactly how you feel, but your words can hide your true intentions rather than express them. You’ll need to pay extra attention to how someone might misinterpret your disclosure, for the meaning could get lost in your current idealism. Remember, not everyone wants to get bogged down in your internal process.

cancer
It’s a rather strange day and it may be hard to see where events are leading. It’s as if you are living in one world while existing in a different one in your imagination. The inner and the outer may even seem to be at odds with one another. Although you might feel discombobulated at first, the outcome of your current activities will likely turn out okay.

libra
It’s a perfect day to lose yourself in a romantic fantasy or to tap the creative wellsprings of your subconscious mind. Although you might have a lovely time in your imagination, it could also manifest in the real world. Nevertheless, don’t be hard on yourself if reality doesn’t live up to the idyllic wonders of your inspiration. Find little ways to incorporate your dreams into your daily life.

sagittarius
Today’s fiery Aries Full Moon activates your playful 5th House, inspiring you to seek pleasure instead of fulfilling your responsibilities. Although you might be able to get away with your penchant for fun, don’t overdo it or there could be a price to pay later. Instead of escaping your obligations, change your attitude so you can enjoy yourself no matter what you are doing.

The way I figure it is this -> if you’re all shades of heartache and that ache doesn’t inspire anything extraordinary, then it might be best to move on to something else. Yep.

The other night dear as I laid sleeping
I dreamed I held you in my arms
But when I woke dear I was mistaken
And I hung my head and I cried

You are my sunshine, my only sunshine
You make me happy when skies are gray
You’ll never know dear, how much I love you
Please don’t take my sunshine away

I’ll always love you and make you happy
If you will only say the same
But if you leave me and love another
You’ll regret it all some day

You told me once dear you really loved me
And no one could come between
But now you’ve left me to love another
You have shattered all of my dreams

In all my dreams you seem to leave me
When I awake my poor heart pains
So won’t you come back and make me happy
I’ll forgive you dear, I’ll take all the blame

Think I tried playing this nearly 20 times on the guitar yesterday, fingers are in desperate need of relearning basic chords again… though not entirely sure if I have the ambition to follow through on training now.

living in a world of dreams and horrors
another organized, formatted distraction

taurus
Of course Monday means back to work for most people, but today is even busier than usual for you. You might start out behind schedule and never quite catch up. Nevertheless, you can feel good about what you do finish, for it will likely be a job well done. It’s better now to do a few things perfectly than to do a lot of things sloppily.

cancer
You may be quite concerned today that your feelings are not recognized by your close friends and family. But blaming others for their lack of care is a mistake. Whether you don’t share enough of your emotions because you are afraid of rejection or you share so much that your disclosures become white noise, it’s time to take responsibility for your own role in the current situation.

leo
You are so attuned to the Sun that the first day of fall can have a profound effect upon you. Naturally, you are sad to see summer days fade away, but you also can feel the buzz of the new season more than others. Don’t let yourself get caught up in nostalgia. Instead look forward to the possibilities that are just around the next bend.

libra
The Sun’s entry to your sign today initiates a month-long illumination of your 1st House of Self. This can be a dilemma, for you prefer to be the balance point between two people, rather than having the spotlight on you. Nevertheless, this is your time of year, so don’t hide when others shine the light of their attention your way.

sagittarius
This can be quite a socially active phase for you, but you might be a bit reticent about getting overly involved. You could already be pushing up against your limits and wishing that you could have some time to yourself. But like it or not, there are others who need you now and you won’t find it easy to walk away. Once you stop wishing things could be different, it will be simpler to enjoy yourself in the present moment.

Yeah, now it’s stuck in your head too. I should apologize but… I won’t. What’s worse is trying to sing that in the shower while your next-door neighbor’s hosting an end-of-summer party right outside your bathroom window.

Man, other than guilty pleasure mixes max-volumized inside my brain (hello again, robots in disguise), can’t say life’s any better or worse now that everything’s calmed down again. Was crazy last week, couldn’t keep my brain quiet when it really, really needed to be.

Meh. Like they say, time wounds all heels.

And *looks around* … someone cleaned up my desk this weekend… I don’t know where anything is anymore. Another mystery… O_o

ringing horrors in your head
my heart in the speakers, is loving the volume… turn it up, turn it up, turn it up, turn it up, turn me on.

taurus
You may have a pretty even-tempered approach toward work today, but will ultimately take the easy way out if it is offered to you. Your key planet Venus will seduce you into saying yes to pleasure, even if you must temporarily set your responsibilities aside. As long as you realize that you aren’t escaping permanently; you’re just seeking to delay the inevitable.

cancer
It’s interesting that you may be more forgiving now than at other times, as your idea of love leans toward sweet care and supportive nurturing. You may be overcompensating for an authoritative posture you recently had to take. Being aware of your impact on others can prevent you from going overboard with your permissive attitude. Find a balance between total acceptance and tough love.

leo
Although your birthday may have come and gone, today may feel like a day when you can make a wish and have it come true. But as enjoyable as an unrealistic fantasy is, you’re better off now focusing on the more practical aspects of your daydreams, for they reveal important clues about what’s around the next bend.

libra
Everything seems to be working in your favor with your ruling planet Venus in easygoing Libra. But you would be unwise to believe that you can simply turn on your charm and get anything you want. Trying to sweet-talk someone into seeing things your way is fine for social chatter, but when it comes to something important, it’s not a substitute for logic and common sense.

sagittarius
You can be very appreciative of your friends today, yet can also be a bit idealistic about your relationships in general. Be careful of making decisions in order to live up to anyone else’s expectations of you instead of paying attention to your own needs. Don’t worry so much about others, for you can waste precious time and energy by pretending to be someone you are not.

venting below, horrors up top

horrors by day
big, blazing balls of makeshift destiny by night

taurus
Just because you have obligations to meet doesn’t mean that you should forgo all pleasure. In fact, taking time for structured play — like recess when you were a child at school — can be just the thing you need to be more productive. But don’t just go off when you feel like it. Make a schedule and stick to it.

cancer
The Sun-Saturn conjunction occurs in your 3rd House of Learning, making this an ideal time to take a new course of study. But this isn’t about frivolous desires to distract yourself with trivial information. Pick a subject that is practical enough to impact your daily life in a positive way.

leo
You may be unduly hard on yourself today as the Sun illuminates your shortcomings by joining judgmental Saturn in your 2nd House of Self-Esteem. Concentrate your energy where you can accomplish something that will make you feel good about your work. If you find yourself thinking about something you did wrong in the past, shift your attention to what you can do right in the present.

libra
Vacillating between fuzzy thinking and accurate analysis of the facts can be a bit exhausting, especially if you can’t tell which is which. If you do get confused, don’t be afraid to ask for help. All too often you are the one assisting others. Now it’s your turn to lean on someone else.

sagittarius
If you experience a setback at work today, don’t just assume that you have failed. Instead, look at the resistance you face as a helpful message from the universe. Even if something was wrong with your original attempt, you have a chance now to improve on what you did and then try again. Don’t give up on your goal; work even harder to prove that you really want it.

Alright, so, cheat ourselves comes from the quote “sometimes when we hold on to things, we cheat ourselves”.

It struck a chord back in May, when life was seeming to get better though not any less confusing. Thought I’d let go of enough things and people that it might be possible to move on more or less unscathed… but I realized last night how that’s really not the case anymore.

It’s just not possible.

Today I’m going to learn how to spell… ‘miscellaneous’ without looking it up first or getting red spellcheckered. Holy crap, I just did it! What a fluke, it wasn’t from memory… =/ So by today’s end, I’ll definitely know how, by heart, fer sure.

Yesterday, I wrote a whole bunch. Wrote sickening stuff that made me kinda believe I was ready to share with more people, felt like I owed explanation of my weird-ass behavior issues, but I was oooh-so-very mistaken and had to retract the long blahblahbleeblah on the big ol’ bad.

Maybe it is better to just forgive, forget, and get the hell out of town.

Which is what I will do, end of the month maybe. No, not maybe, definitely. Screw work and being a responsible young adult. Screw telling my parents anything. And definitely screw the insurmountable stack of bills calling me out to play whoopee with the check book.

just icing on the horror
“How do I explain this to you: last night I ate the best cake of my life. You think I’m gonna let that cake out of my life? Hell no! I’m gonna find out what bakery made that cake, and then I’m gonna get some more cake!”

“The cake really got to you, huh?”

“…It haunts me.”

taurus
You may be revisiting an old issue today as you try to find a workable balance between your individual needs and those of your friends and associates. If you are involved in a project with others, it could be challenging to function as part of the team without becoming less effective. Instead of worrying about your productivity now, just do what you can to fit in with the group.

cancer
Even if you know exactly what you must do today, your dreams can lead you all over the map before you arrive at your destination. You may get quite concerned because of the wasted time and energy, but you can change your attitude by accepting the idea that everything happens for a purpose. You may not accomplish what you originally set out to do, but where you end up may be even better.

leo
If you have a business partner, you could get dragged into a messy situation today — one that won’t likely be untangled easily. Handling the complexity of other people’s emotions can be hard work yet it’s even more difficult when there is money at stake. Keep in mind that the differences between you and someone else may ultimately be simpler to bridge than the gulf between your head and your heart.

libra
If you have been living with a secret and still have not brought it out into the open, now it’s time to stop worrying about it for a bit. You have other tasks to handle today and you must focus on mundane issues, such as the details of a project at work. Taking your mind off your inner life now can set the stage for the outer journey that begins tomorrow.

sagittarius
Once again you are stretched between issues at home and responsibilities at work. This time, however, you should be able to resolve any problem — at least on a temporary basis. Luckily, it feels as if you have invisible helpers, doing magic on your behalf in parallel universes. You’re not crazy, but it’s still a good idea to keep this secret to yourself for now.

~these have been strangely right-on-target the last few days.

So, I woke up completely in love this morning. There’s nothing to do today except be lazy and hot and sticky. No reason to crawl out of bed early or leave the house, you can just vegetate and laugh and read and sketch. I love this part, love it.

You know what I mean, that part where the bad stuff’s been put on hold you and you start to forgive, take the time to appreciate what you have and you’re finally content and washed over with this feeling that everything really is alright. Everything is safe and your heart won’t drop into your stomach just to jump out of your chest the next second. Calm, soft repose.

Wow, and did I mention so in love?

persuasive horrors
‘lets not and just wish we did’

taurus
You have a rather pragmatic way of turning your day into one filled with pleasure. But you may be so concerned with making sure that everything happens just as it should that you inadvertently exclude yourself from the enjoyment. You may feel fully responsible for everyone, but you are only one person. If others don’t want to share in the work, perhaps they shouldn’t share in the fun.

cancer
Although you are naturally comfortable in the non-rational realm of emotions, you may not be so competent communicating what you feel. Today, especially, actions speak louder than words. Instead of rambling on about some nuance of perception, just express yourself through a direct gesture that doesn’t necessarily require any words at all.

leo
Your love is as hot as the summer Sun today with sexy Venus in your sign picking up on the deep passions of Pluto. There’s no question in anyone’s mind what you’re feeling, because you won’t be able to keep it hidden. Even if your emotions are overly intense, it’s best not to bottle them up now or they could explode without any apparent reason.

libra
Having a few very special friends is surely a blessing. Today is a great day to show your love and appreciation to those in your life who truly matter. But don’t hold back; if you have something to say, say it all. Anything less than the whole truth now will seem like a watered down version of the real message. Fortunately, others will be able to hear you and respond on a heartfelt basis as well.

sagittarius
Once you get a big idea about what you want to do next, watch out world! You aren’t attracted to simple goals now; instead, you’re seeking a grand adventure that is worthy of your efforts. Even if the plan is unrealistic, it’s still healthy to go through the motions and dream about it. Anything that stirs up your deep passions today is good for you in the long run.

(um, this may just be a side effect O_o)

edit: and maybe it’s just my imagination, but did my horror really just tell me to shut up and get it on? … yes? no? hm, just me then.